TUMBLED in the Sea
“The waves broke and spread their waters swiftly over the shore.
One, two, three, and then they hurried back to gather themselves for another assault.”
In 2007 Cindy, Steve Akin and I were walking next to the ocean near Peacehaven, England when a sneaker wave rose out of the sea and lashed them both. I was fortunate to be the furthest from the water and missed the assault.
I wish I had a good story to tell, but right now the waves of pain have been making an all out assault on Cindy.
A new nerve pain that starts in her back and travels down her left leg has developed that did not exist before surgery.
When the pain comes it quickly surges to a 9 or 10 on the pain scale. And it’s like a swimmer fighting against a rip tide.
Pain meds do not calm the waves.
The last three nights it was as if the tide was coming in. It is hard to watch.
We talked to the Dr’s office. They have increased her meds. They are confident that this will pass. Their years of experience and our relationship with them has given us comfort, but it is still scary.
She has not slept much, but at about noon today the tide went out and she seemed to fall into a deep sleep.
I’m trying to stay quiet (hard for me).
We are praying for a low tide tonight.
“I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea . . . I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them . . . He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain,”
Last night we looked at the colors in the sky praying they were a good sign. The beauty was deceptive and the night was dark.
The dogs know something is up and are very sensitive to the pain. They keep circling and bumping up into us.
